~CiNTa DiA~

Baru cuti dua mgu tp dh bosan thp dewa ni. Cane??

Lst Sunday ws Moms’ day. All I had in mind ws my mom n mil. Pg2 dh call mil utk wish kt dia. Turun bwh ingt nk wish kt mama, alih2 umh dh kosong. Sume org gi kebon dgn alasan nk exercise bg kuar peloh. Tinggal aku, hubby n adam jek kt umh. Xpe la, th day bfore we’ve already made plans dgn papa to fix a bbq party for mama.

Ptg tu b ajk kuar gi carik cake n tidbits fr th bbq. Excited gle nk celebrate utk mama. Tgh pusing2 pikir nk bli cake kt ne, ttibe b mnt maaf sbb dia kata dia terlupa lnsung yg aku pn should be celebrated as much as, if not more than, mama n mak since i’m th mother to his child.

Believe it or not, up to that point, i myself didn’t realized that i am a mommy. Lupa lansung. Suddenly th day became even more special than it already was..

Utk b.. Jgn risau k. I don’t need a special day to feel special. Enough knowing that i’m special to u n adam every single day.

Mggu lps mmg ngeri tok aku. Tiap kali ujan je aku xsenang ddk. Mane x ny. Umah yg aku sewa dgn hrge rm400 sbln ni confirm naik air bl ujn lebat. *sj nk bgtau sume org sewa kt jb ni gile murah bnding ngn kt sh alam*

Umh ni klo ikot mmg sgt ok kondisi ny, cuma rendah skit la klo bnding ngn jalan kt dpn ni. Jd ny, bl ujan je aku pn ready ngn senjata2 aku cam nk gi perang. Dh cm maid endon aku rs. Tgh2 ujan dgn suar sinsing smp lutut, rambot tocang tggi2, pegang scoop smpah, pstu sodok air dpn umh. Dh name laki dok jauh kn. Kna la wt sndri.

Xnk tny adam dok kt mn time aku beriye mnyodok air tu? Haha.. Si bulat tu aku quarantine kn kt atas highchair dia. Biar dia pekik smp hilang suara pn aku dh xpedulik. Malang tok aku, usaha aku yg bagai buruh kasar tu cuma leh kurangkn amount air yg msuk jek, xde makna ny nk blh sekat.

Klo ikotkn, lst weekend B xleh nk blk sbb bnyk kje. Tp aku pdulik ape? Larat nk cuci umh hr2? Sorg2 lk tu. Klo dak adam ni leh tlg sepak2 air bg kering ke xpe la jgk. *hehehe.. blh ke?* Hr sabtu aku call B nangis2 sbb dh xleh blah. Badan sakit, hati bengkak. *senjata aku paling hebat skali* Che abg tu mn leh thn dgr bini dia nangis2. Tros capai kunci, grak blk jb.

Smp je dr mlka aku ckp kt dia aku dh xnk cuci umh. Resign! Sian kt dia. Pnt drive xhbs lg, tros smbg kerja2 pembersihan yg dh tbengkalai sbb buruh yg satu ni dh mogok. *Leh ke jd isteri solehah cmni? Adoi la..*

Ms bgtau landlord psl bnjir tu, dia dh suroh aku carik tukang soh wt divider kt dpn umh ni. Leh x indon yg aku pggil tu, dr hr slase aku tggu smp dh sbtu xdtg jgk. Lst resort, tny kt kak ida blkg umh ni klo laki dia willing nk tlg wt kn. Abg aris kate ok tp nk kna mintak B tlg skit2. Hr ahad tu pepagi buta kitorg g hardware cr simen n pasir. *si*l cine tu tipu aku hidup2. order pasir 1 ela, hntr xsmp 1/2 ela pon*

Dgn jayeny B sama abg aris wt divider/bumper dpn umah. Impian aku nk gi tgk si safwan alif xtrcapai lg kes banjir ni. Cite kt mk mntua aku. Blh dia kate “ala, air klo masuk umh tu tanda rezeki”.. Adoi la.. Klo dh air ny ala2 teluk kemang, pstu gaye aku pn dh ala2 pembntu rmh menonggeng2 tolak air, rezeki pon malu nk tgk aku rupa cmtu. 

Skang dh ok. Sok nk gi tgk safwan alif. Sian mama dia bosan dok umh sorg2.

hahaha. dh bebulan2 aku xhapdet blog ni. np? ntah. bnyk sebnrny yg tejadi. tp bl dh dok dpn lappy ni, korek pakai jengkaot pn cm xnk kuar ayat yang maveles2. so ape aku buat? hahah. intai kengkawan nye blog je la nk tau diorg ny pekembangan. seperti tajok di atas. xde yg rindu kt aku pon kn, nk beriye2 hapdet hr2.

nway, congrats tok dur n ketip on their beautiful bb, safwan alif. comel n kecik2 dh tunjuk bakat begambar ek. beriye tgk camera n senyum. cm tau jek babah dia nk hntr gmbr dia satu malaya pakai mms. psni jenuh mama n babah dia gi cuci gmbr. jgn jd cm abg adam ek. mami n dedi dia amik gmbr smpai nk penuh extrnal hdd tp skeping pn lom cuci lg. hahha. sian si mnje aku tu. nnt ye bb. kita korek duit dedi gi cuci.

utk dur, felt like half of th weight hv been lifted off my shoulder. ceh, cam aku je yg nk branak. tp siyes u. i xtau np bl tgk u ms dh hujung2 tgh tgu hr tu, i cm sdh jek. kaki bengkak2 + bdn xlarat + kne gi kls hr2 + pkir pjct yg xprogress2 tu *wink*. i lega gle bl u dh slamat n bb sht. *xleh ingt cne u telepon i shari smp 3, 4 kali pasal bosan dok kt spital. hihih.. xpe i layankn jek sbb i tau sgt cane u rs n so glad  i could help*

Oops! terkesima skejap bile bca blog amy.  hahaha. yg, utk xmenghampakan u kali ni i layankan tag u. hahaha. haku xcited tahap sos cili megi ni..

No need fr introduction. Bet u guys know him already. Obviously, he’s been hving gr8 time experimenting th curtain. Observing th effects of sunlight through it n wind blow against th pitiful green piece. I’m very sure tht he enjoyed th tingling feeling when it ran against his bare skin.

As per title, it’s been sooo long since my lst update. Gile pny bz. Finally! Th 1st part of my mstrs dgree ended *with lots of headaches n tense of course* Final exm? Not so much of satisfaction.

Hate to admit, but think i’ve lost my touch. Used to be so damn gud at this. *Sape xsuka/xhingin dgr aku angkat dr sndr, pls dn’t read any further. I’ll be saying things u might call as cakap besar. So, out u go! Btw, sukati aku la nk ckp ape kn. Ni blog aku!*

Dulu, klo bab2 blaja ni mama n papa xpnh risau psl aku. At 1st they sure hell did scream on th top of their lungs soh aku study, as i always had my eyes on th tv all th time *tht is if i wsn’t sleeping, of course*. But after a few marvelously-full-of-A’s report crds, they went silent. Proven myslf brilliant i guess.. Never saw me wth books at home. Secret? I listen well in class, each n evry detail. That n only that. No xtra exercises, no xtra readings, not even homework. Hehe.. Boys n gurls, dn’t do this at home k..

Tringat kt Chegu Zaleha. Ajar b.m ms aku form 4 n form 5. Chegu Zaleha: Aida, dah dua thn sye xnmpk buku latihan awak. Alamak, kantoi. Ingat dia xprasan. Time tu dh hjg thn form 5. Dh nk spm dh pn. Mmg aku xpnh hnto buku b.m n sejarah aku. Tp chegu sejarah a.k.a Pn Maimunah cm xprasan pn. Ke, dia prasan tp mls nk layan. Surprisingly, few other subjects like m3, add m3 n chemistry xpnh aku xhntr. Xtau la sbb chegu dia grang ke sbb aku suke sbjct2 ni.

Sbb dpt gud results fr spm, i received lots of money from all th organizations of which mama was a mmber bck then. At 1st ingt nk further in accountancy sbb ms tu dh dpt offer frm INTEC utk g uk, but due 2 some advice frm mama’s buddies, i took engineering. Glad i did. Klo x, xjmp la chenta hati ku sayang. Hehe.. Nasib b pn tolak offer jd pilot TUDM. Klo x melepas aku. *wink* Few years after: Mazwan weds Aida = Adam. Hahaha.. *Hati ku bbunga riang*

Bck to my stories. My excellencies went on till bachelor’s dgree. Ws best student of diploma electrical engineering power 2004 *damn proud of th title*. Then, got 1st class honors dgree *yey! xyah bayar ptptn*. Next, got th best job ever *easy work but gud money!!*

Ikot hti mls sbnrny nk smbg master. Nk wt cmn, job requirement. Cannot stop here though. Not in a million years. Hbs master ni diorg dh suroh smbg phd lak. Semak dada. Mybe btl kta org tua2. Lps besalin ni bnyk orat2 putus. Dh xsm cm dl. Lost my concentration, absent minded most of th time, no more energetic.. Nk kata pnt sbb adam, xjgk. He’s been th most wonderful baby ever. Xpnh pn sshkn mommy. Never will i regret having him as a company.

Ntah la.. Seeing all my fellow friends dpt A for evry paper really kills me inside. Darkest envy fills my entire body. Gile! Realize they deserve evry single A’s they got! Keep telling myself its time to smooth down. As expected, my crazy, hay-wired mind refuse to accept these words. Have to stop this b4 i go any crazier!

HELP!! I’m now a handicap! Hate to loose th only thing i’m gud at! Lucky hubby said he still sees me as beautiful as ever even wthout as many A’s printed on my transcript.  *Big smile*

Beautiful??? Huhuhuhuu.. *i terbang tinggi*

Some of our raye pics!

Lama gle xupdate. Each time i tried, i kept on holding bck. Words didn’t seem 2 come out rite. Not a gr8 writer, i guess.. Writer or no writer, this time i’m gonna post a new entry.

Hr ni br 12 Syawal. Tp xde sekelumit pn rs cm raya. Np? Heran jgk. Nvr felt ths way b4. Slaluny kt klg dl time2 cn xpnh sunyi ngn invitation to open houses. Xpun lepak2 kt umh or umh nenek n mk anjang ngabiskn kuih raya diorg. Mybe kt Skudai ni most of my neighbours r non-muslims. Hence weekdays or weekends, agenda  ny sama, guling2 in front of th tv (wth my 2 heroes of course) of which most of th time showing stupid, meaningless programmes.

D tmbh plk dgn keje yg mlambak. Lecturer pn ye jgk, dh hjung2 sem br la nk bg assg n test bnyk2. Time2 cm ni mula la rase rindu gle nk blk klg. Rnd mama, papa, jea n sume yg ada kt sna. Not saying tht i didn’t enjoy guling2 wth th boys. I did, but wouldn’t it b nicer if we hd activities tht designated raya?

Despite all this, i did enjoy myself th 1st few dys of raya. Very much, indeed. Pg raya kt Klg sbb last year dh rya kt Sg Petani. Syok gile even xsume ada pg tu sbb ada yg kena giliran kt tmpt mentua. Adik-bradik mama yg sebelas org tu mmg mustahil la kn nk dpt kumpul semua on th dy. Any how, it was heavenly.

Since Adam is th 1st of his layer on th family tree, this yr is officially my 1st raya as a mother, mama, papa n sume adik-bradik diorg as tok mama (nenek) n atok, n of course nenek plak naik pngkat jd unyang. 

Antara ayat2 yg sering kdngaran pg tu: “Kerana budak ni la kitorg naik pngkat jd nenek/atok”

Hahahah.. Ramai yg marah. Mana x ny, br umor 21 dh jd nenek.

Ucu: “Jgn panggil nenek ye, Adam.. Panggil Acu je..” HAHAHAHAH.. Dh nenek tu nenek je la ucu..

Long b4 puasa, i made plans wth hubby n insisted tht we introduce Adam to all his atok, nenek, unyang n oneng (unyang’s parents). Most of Adam’s unyangs n both his onengs dh tua sgt. So, i made it very clear to hubby of how important it is to visit all of them this raya. Since ptg rya prtama tu dh nk gerak blk Sg Petani, we made very short visits to their places. Alhamdulillah, ramai jgk la yg kitorg dpt jmp..

Pnt gile. Mau xpnt klo kena hbs kn sume dlm brp jam je. Ptg tu, pnt cmn pn kena blk kdh jgk sbb mak abah kt sna dh xde sape2 psl abg kie, kak ayu n nor dh gerak blk taiping tgh hr tu. Jln xbrp jam tp smp dh nk dkt kol 1pg. Nxt day, plan ny nk bwk Adam g umh unyang kdh plak, tp due to some reasons (not to b disclosed here) plan tu tpaksa cancel.

Org dtg umh mak xberenti. Rs cm nk tekehel kepala lutut. Ikot hati nk tutup pintu, dok diam2 kt dlm umh buat cm xde org. Tp komplot aku ngn mak yg satu tu xbejaye sbb xsmpt nk tutup pintu dh smpai org lain lak. Ahad: aku n mak pnt smp dua2 tetido sblh Adam kt dining hall. Ingat nk tidokn adam, alih2 kitorg dua yg tido. Ntah ape la rupa kitorg ms tu.. Heheh..

Mlm Ahad tu th 3 of us (Hubby, me n Adam) sumbat all our stuffs kt bonet kete n drive our way bck to skudai. Jam ny Subhanallah! Ingt ada accident ke hape.. Rupany org nk msuk R&R sg perak. Punya la jauh jam smp hubby tepaksa berenti tepi jln tu lepaskan hajat smp 3 kali. N worse come to worst, kt prentian bodoh pn org ramai n most of th toilets xde air. Penat+boring=bengang_yg_amat_sgt!

Sg Petani-Skudai took us 12 hrs. Very unexpected! That monday ingt nk study sbb rabu tu ade test Lightning n Grounding, i end up tido bepelok-pelokan ngn hubby n adam sbb terlampau pnt. Klu ikotkn, nk msk pn dh xlrt tp sian tgk hubby ku yg klaparan, aku msk kicap je dging kerbau yg abah bg kt kitorg ms blk. Jd la drp xde lansung..

Kesian b.. Dh pnt drive dr kdh blk j.b, mlm tu kena blk mlaka plk sbb selasa dh stat keje. Tggl la adam n mommy dia yg xstudy lg walaupon nk test hr rabu ny.

Luckily, Adam yg tdo spjng jln dr sg petani ke skudai+sehari suntuk hr isnin, cerah mata n xnk tido selasa mlm tu.. Mommy pon berlagu riang sbb ada org temankn study smp kol 4 pg. Gud fr me, aku jwb soalan test dgn penoh gilang-gemilang. Hahahaha..

Sib baik x benak mkn ketupat n rendang bnyk sgt. Oh ye.. lupa nk bgtau, kegembiraan krn turun 3kg spnjng bulan puasa berakhir dgn sadisny pd hr ry ke3 sbb berat dh naik blk 3kg dlm ms 3 hr.  

Skng ni bck to my life as a studying wife n mother. Bz, bz, bz.

Adoi la.. Tringt la pulak, tujuan asal on laptop ni nk wat assg sbnrny..

Br skrg rs bz wat master. Awal2 sem dl wat xtau je. Rs cm blh je go wth th flow. Tp skng dh mula rs cm hilang arah. Takot!

Ini tgjwb. Ini amanah. Ini ms dpn. Harap aku brsabar n mmpu jd insan cemerlang.

*Doa*